I hope all of you had a great weekend, here is my answer to the FMM - defining moments question that Kenlie had posted on her blog All the Weight. If you haven't checked it out you are missing a great blog full of inspiration and very touching stories. I hope you enjoy the reading.
FMM: Defining Moments
Was there a defining moment in which you realized that you needed to lose weight? If so, will you elaborate? (If you experienced this moment in some other area of your life, please feel free to share that too!)
Well, this is certainly a question that I have an answer for. In August 2010, I was reaching one of my heaviest weights; I was 193 lbs, 7 pounds lighter from my heaviest weight while being pregnant of my daughter. She was born on January 2010 and after that I lost most of the pregnancy weight, about 20lbs. When I started my pregnancy I was already close to 180 lbs and I lost some due to an ovarian cyst that sent me to the hospital for 5 days. I became a stay at home mom, which I love but this new phase of my life and my new sedentary lifestyle started to become a pound gaining rollercoaster and in 7 months I went from 200 to 175 to 193. I knew I had to do something but I was not ready to make the commitment with myself. In late August I hosted a baby shower for a friend and one of the pictures taken that day made me realized that the person I saw every morning in the mirror was not the same as the one I was seeing in the picture. The one in my mirror didn’t look that big but the one in the picture looked not only big but not happy. I saw that picture and I wanted to hide and cry. I felt very disappointed of me and I felt like I was not the right role model for my daughter.
Not too long after the picture was taken I also had a deep conversation with my husband and one of the things he said to me was that I had an addiction to food. When he said that I got upset, angry and defensive. I was angry with myself but poor husband got the anger outburst and the whole crying scene for hurting me that way. Today when I think of that conversation I give thanks that we had it and that he was totally honest with me. It took me a while to digest that indeed I had an additive relationship with food. After that deep moment I knew I had to do something and went to WW. I started it and lost about 7 lbs from mid September to late October but I switched to Take Shape For Life (TSFL), and since then I have lost the majority of my extra weight. I made the switch because I wanted a program where I could loose weight without thinking too much about what to do or what to cook and also learn new habits to become a healthier person and this program worked for me. It had the structure I needed and also I learned to make better choices in terms of food. I also became more active, I’m enjoying a lot this new me and the chance to be a good role model for my daughter. I didn’t want her to remember me as the couch potato mom. I also did it for my health and for my husband; he has been an amazing support in this journey. I know this was a little too long but I really needed to put in words.
Thanks for the question Kenz.
And thanks to those who have taken the time to read my story.