Monday, August 15, 2011

FMM- Driving Force

What is the driving force behind your weight-loss?  

Once again I'm faced with the question that defines a lot of my decisions when starting the road of being healthy and thiner. For years I made all sorts of commitments to be in a better shape and happy with my image and in the end I always ended up quitting once I saw good results, I felt comfortable with them and thought my work was done and I started to overindulge until I was back and beyond my starting point and even farther away from my goal to look pretty and wear a "normal" size of clothing. I finally got to the point where my body ached every morning after waking up, my arms will get numb, I would be out of breath after a fly of stairs and I was not eating the right things to nourish myself, instead I was on the path of self destruction. I was not happy with those results but I was not strong enough or better committed enough to stop that destructive trend and really take control of my habits. I was a happy person, I became a mother of the most beautiful gift GOD has given me, I have a supportive and loving husband by my side, my family and friends love me but the reality is that I wasn't ready to really do my homework to be healthier. One year ago I had a powerful conversation with my husband, he was worried about my health and also my eating habits, he said I was addicted to food and that I needed professional help. That comment and a picture I saw of myself hurt my pride and I would say they made me make the decision of being healthy.

My friend was pregnant I was not and I looked way too big.

 I then realized I had all I wanted and that if I wanted to be there in the future to enjoy it I had to do something. And I finally accepted I had to be gentle to myself. My driving force was already there, they were my HUSBAND and DAUGHTER. In the beginning my goal was to loose the weight and be healthy, now that I've lost the majority of that weight and I'm in a healthy range my new goal is to maintain it and to continue to nourish my body and soul with quality and not quantity. I'm not perfect and don't want to be perfect, I want to make mistakes, learn from them and also live my life to be an example for my daughter, I want to be there for my husband. I love to have the extra energy and to wear clothes that are a smaller size and I totally enjoy going out for a workout and sweat like crazy.

Enjoying a run with my daughter Emma and a beautiful trail close to our home

Thank you for taking time to read me.
Take care,

Monday, August 8, 2011

FMM - A letter to My Future Self

This week's topic is really interesting I hope to get to know my future self as a good role model for my family and friends, right now my present self is working on it...

FMM: A Letter To My Future Self
Dear Ximena,
Today is Monday, August 8 2011 and you are 39 years old. How old are you future Ximena? I truly hope you are proud of the accomplishments you have made and with your life when you read this post. I want you to have a good attitude towards  life and to have all the energy and enthusiasm as if you were still 39. This year has been the beginning of a lot of new and exciting challenges in your life, I'm learning how to run 5k in 100 days, I'm eating healthy and becoming more loving of our body and soul. I'm starting to take better care of ourselves and I hope you are enjoying the benefits of this changes. There are a lot of things I would like to tell you right now but I will stick to a couple that to me ,are really making me move forward today: I want you to ALWAYS love yourself and be thankful for the blessings you receive every single day. You are strong and when you are committed to something you prove you can do it. The picture below is a proof to you that you can dream big and accomplish what you want.

I also want you to be constantly challenging yourself and to strive to be a better person everyday. Never stop dreaming. Don't punish yourself if you have made the wrong decisions in the past but be diligent and find a solution to avoid making the same mistakes. I love you very much and this is the legacy I want to give you. I promise I will keep working hard to make you happy and proud of yourself.